Damn its been a while

I am now 18 which I find absolutely insane. I graduated May 15th, 2022. Thinking back to everything that has happened in the last few years, I couldn’t believe I could be at where I’m at now. I have got this amazing fiance, he’s 21 btw and I am 6 months pregnant now. Its now 2023 which is the craziest thing and being a part of his life has been a wild journey and I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have known him for pretty much 3 years now and I was so excited to meet him last year. I met him on June 8th last year and he was living with his aunt and uncle. Might I say we had planned it for a while, we would be on video call almost every night. We started to date April 17th last year around 9:30pm. I now realize on the 17th of this month we will have been together for 9 months, which might I say is the longest relationship I’ve ever had. Continuing the story; nox(my best friend)was planning on bringing me up to Sedalia to see him. Me and him had talked about it for a bit because Blake was wanting to see me and I was wanting to see him. Meeting him was better than I ever expected, I was so nervous but excited and when I saw him for the first time in person I just melted. I gave him a hug then kissed him on the lips and then he mentioned his family was having a BBQ at around 5, which me and nox was just planning on spending a few hours there and then going back home but that didn’t happen. Anyway we all went inside and chilled for a bit and we had to sit on the floor because there was not really any furniture(which no shame to them). I walked around for a moment and then we sat on the floor and i had my polaroid camera with me and i was planning on taking a picture with him because i wanted to capture meeting him for the first time.

Moving on we ended up going to his grandpas BBQ and me and nox had met some of his family and we ended up getting later into the night and it was beginning to get too late for nox to drive us back. I wanted to be safer than sorry, so I decided we were going to spend the night at his uncles house. Being with him there was the best feeling cause I met his cousin, mom, stepdad, and a few other people. Which when I met his mom I knew I loved her, she was just amazing. I believe it was around 10 or so that night that I got a message from my dad asking me when I was going to be home and I told him that I was going to be spending the night up here and he was like ok just be home in the morning which I agreed to it cause duh I was there with someone I found out to be the love of my life later on. I was happy and I wasn’t worried about my dad at all. Going to see him was pretty much an escape from home and I felt free and didn’t really have to worry about anything. Whenever we all got back to the house we got the beds set up and we all chilled for a bit then went to bed. His stepdad had gotten drunk and when he walked past me and blake he told us “no hanky panky” which made us both laugh. Little did I know this man, my man would get me to try things I never wanted to try or get me to do things I never thought I would want to do.

Morning comes and we both dread the fact that I have to go back home to my dads. Me and nox ended up going home I think around 12 or 1 in the afternoon. Blake didn’t want me to go and I didn’t want to go either but I had to or dad would be mad. I hate making my dad mad. We ended up going to the animal shelter and when we were almost done looking at all the dogs and stuff dad called me wondering where I was at. I told him I would be home in a bit. I saw a lot of blake that I never expected to see and learned a lot about him within the day and a half that I was with him. Anyway we ended up getting sonic and then headed home. When I got home I just sat in my room on my bed remembering what had happened the day before and just relished in the fact that meeting him and part of his family was the best thing ever.

About a month later as me, blake and nox had been talking about moving situations because I was getting fed up with how I was being treated by dad and I would call blake crying everytime because I wanted him to know what happened, and he wanted me to get out of there as well. I was struggling so hard because I got advice from everyone saying that I shouldn’t move in with him because we had been together for only a few months and nox had told me we wouldn’t be together by our one year because living together would be a big mistake. Nox had gone through this with her ex and he just didnt want to see me hurt because of how much he cares about me. I was on call with him one night and me and him had talked about me moving in with him and at the time nox had been with a girl named cordelia and me and nox had gone to the airport to meet her and after knowing her for 3/4 years and never meeting her within that time it would be understandable why nox would be hella nervous to meet her. We went to the airport to meet cordelia I believe this was the sunday after meeting my fiance, it was June 12th I believe that we went to the airport to meet her. I’m pretty sure the airport was in St. Louis. I believe that she ended up giving me a hug or something but i don’t quite remember. Anyway moving on, I remember being on call with him one night and I had started a love letter to him and we had texted back and forth over moving in together and I was scared to do so cause me and nox and cordelia were planning on moving in together in august and blake ended up being so upset over the fact that I said that I thought maybe moving in together would have been a bad idea because of what courtney said about her exes and living together and what nox about her ex living together. He had explained to me how being with me was the best he ever felt(something like that) and how sleeping next to him stopped him from having night terrors and I was worried about when his mom dies because shes really sick and has cancer and I wanted to be there for him when she does go because I know he would take it really hard. All that had led up to me finally deciding to take the risk of moving in with him. Even though taking the risk might be a bad idea, I wanted to see what living with him would be like and if I could prove everyone wrong.

If I’m really being honest living with him is the best decision I have ever made. While I was working at Walmart my co worker had said something about a rock concert that she was going to in St. Louis on the 5th of july and I thought that would be a genius idea for a date because he liked all the bands that were going to be playing. After some contemplating over the next couple of days it was decided that it wasn’t going to be the best idea even though I had already gotten the 5th off for it. I was still determind to go up to sedalia to see him cause I wasn’t going to waste that day off at dads. Me and nox had created up a lie that I was gonna spend the week at nox’s parents house. Its the day of the 5th after going to ericas(my cousins) baby shower on the 3rd and after dad agreed to that little arrangement we went up to sedalia. Me and nox went up to blakes aunt and uncles house and I was so glad to see him. Nox ended up staying for a bit then left me at the house with him after giving him and a hug then leaving. I ended up turning my location off so no one knew where I was everyone was worried.

To finish this story off my dad got mad after he found out that I practically moved out without him knowing and he told me I had to have all of my stuff moved out by the weekend. Everyone ended up finding out that I had abruptly moved and was disappointed but was glad I was ok. After everything people became content with me moving as time went on given I was closer to family. Up to present time people are happy that I’m pregnant with a little girl and her name is Brielle and we plan on moving again by the end of January hopefully to be in a big enough house for all of us and that we will be content with where were at. I’m working at Long John silvers at the moment being 6 months pregnant missing my best friend and hopefully me and blake will have our own place to raise the child by next year.

I’m so sorry it took you this long to read but now you know where im at in the present and i hope you beautiful people have an awesome year and a wonderful day.